During each summer of my college career, God has shown me some overarching theme/big lesson that is important for me to learn. 2009 at camp: He works through brokenness. 2010 in Uganda: I need to lean on Him daily, everywhere. 2011 at Dfocus: "Look at me, Laura! I am really big and I LOVE YOU!!"
I've been a "real" Christian since I was ten and loved Jesus since before I can remember. Part of me thought I had this walk all figured out. WRONG. The intense study we are doing at Dfocus has gone very deep into some simple concepts that I never thought about so much before and the foundations of my relationship with Him are being shifted and shaken.
One huge truth I've seen especially in these last few weeks? God is love (have you ever REALLY thought about the implications of that??). Because He is love, nothing is more glorious to Him than showing love and being loved in return. "Bringing God glory", which I always knew was the purpose of my life, is not really something I have to do. I don't have to be concerned about going out and showing people how big and great God is--He can do that all by Himself. It's just about loving Him. A lot. And his love is HUUUUUUUUUUUUGE.
I think I'm falling in love.
But just because I'm doing all this concentrated I-love-God stuff doesn't mean it doesn't get a little crazy around here. There are 53 college students living on a campground together with access to free stuff in Pigeon Forge. It's impossible for it not to get crazy. I would put up pictures, but my home internet is being as slow as a snake in winter. I'll make a list instead.
Hillbilly night at Dixie Stampede.
Stabucks. A lot.
The Track.
Joseph and the Technicolor Dreamcoat.
Dance parties.
Gatlinburg Motion Ride.
Donuts.
Ultimate Frisbee.
Hammocks.
Skin---I mean, swimming.
Froyo.
Neon Cosmic Bowling.
Jurassic Boat Ride.
Mini Golf.
Neon Bowling.
Walmart.
Spooning.
It's a great time. My cabinmates are hilarious--Baba Larve is now an established member and one of my roommates also likes to play the part of a small Mexican boy named Oscar. They make a great team. We hung a hammock from bunk to bunk in my bedroom. The girls in my small group like to dive into deep discussion, and I'm all about that. It's also nice to finally have some guy friends that aren't befriending me because they want to creep on me later. Genuinely nice Christian boys that show me the love of Christ in a brotherly way---that is a beautiful and rare thing. I'm also learning to buy groceries like a grownup and cook for myself.
Oh yeah, and I have a job working all over Splash Country in different concessions booths, since part of dfocus is that everyone works at Dollywood or Splash Country. Because of this job, I never want to eat hotdogs or nachos again and I will NEVER get a tattoo.
I've got seven weeks left of this adventure. Yee-haw.
Can I get the tatoo thing in writing with a blood signature? I love what you are learning. Awesome. God IS love. Now think of all the other things God IS. Makes you feel awefully small? And somehow safe? Loveit.
ReplyDeleteAnd some pics would be lovely but I get the visual coming through nicely.
Keep at it, baby girl. You're working the program and growing and I am watching like a proud Mama as always.