Happy + Sad

Word of the day: go.

I'm feelin' a little happy, a little sad, a little out of it...of course, it is 2:15 am and I just really don't want to go to bed. I'm a mess.

As a hall, we watched three episodes of Boy Meets World and one episode of Glee after the last time I wrote. Last night together. Happy + sad.

Wednesday was a little hard. I spent a good chunk of the day packing. Then Alyssa and I had to say goodbye to Esty and the boys for good (though we left cards and cake behind). Then I had to leave my hall, and I'm not gonna lie, I cried pretty hard coming down that mountain. These girls have been the biggest chunk of my life over the last nine months or so. They brought me through the hard times, and each of them is a beautiful, special, crazy individual lady. Yeah, nobody's dying, but next year will be different. The seniors will all move off campus. Brit's getting married. Molly's moving away. Diana's going to a different hall. The dynamics all change. Every once in a while, I just want to keep time where it is, and this was one of those times. But everyone is going to do awesome things this summer, and Lisa gave me our first hug. Happy + sad.

We're cute.

Rull cute.

When I finally got home, unloading the car was ridiculous. Only sad. Or maybe just tiring.

I got to spend the afternoon with Morgan on Thursday. We watched Dr. Who and New Moon and tried on clothes and did those things we do when we're together. She's my best friend/sister blend. We frustrate the heck outa each other sometimes, but we've been friends so long it doesn't even matter. Her house is my haven. In a few years, she's going to be married and she won't be at that house and we won't be like that anymore. I may be out of the country. I'll at least be out of the city. Even now, I don't really want to leave her for the summer. Sad, some happy. I mean, I do want to see her children one day.

I went shopping with my mom today. We exhausted ourselves scrambling around walmart for bug spray. She's upset that we won't be able to call each other this summer. I took my sister to Starbucks for happy hour and we spent the rest of the afternoon dancing around the pool in our bathing suits. Like, literally--dancing. It's what the Love sisters do. Tomorrow I'm doing her hair for prom. My brother got an awesome summer job--and he's going to be an amazing husband. My dad says I never cease to amaze him with my creativity. Mimi says I make her day when I give her a call. My family--I'm leaving them for the summer. Eventually I'll leave them for longer than that. Mostly sad, but happy when mom asks me to do chores.

I talked to Matt tonight. I miss him a lot. He makes me laugh. I don't know when/if I'll ever see him again (we're talking earthly bodies here). Happy + sad.

I got a haircut today that makes me look like a boy. There's about an inch of hair on my neck, and that's all. This is only....interesting.

I'm leaving the state on Sunday. I'm leaving the country on Monday. Oh my. This will be my last post on this blog before then, so goodbye all. I will be posting on my trip blog only until I get back, and then I'll pick this up again. Happy, because I'll only have one blog to keep up with.

Song of the day: Hot and Cold by Katy Perry

Whoa.

Word of the day: Exams. Let's be honest, exams eat your life. So does cleaning day. So does food, even though you eat it back. I love food. I especially love it when I'm stressed with exams, so here I have a cycle of things eating me and me eating things and it's just vicious.

We have come to the end of the school year and I'm leaving the country in six days. Oh. My. Gawsh.

Feelings now? Um, I'm really tired.

Four out of five exams are over, so I have one left tomorrow that's keeping me from being an official junior. Let's just finish this already. I have no desire to look at any more words for a while. Unfortunately, this summer I will have five books to read and I'll probably be teaching some English. Woohoo words.

The Fritz 2009-2010 is almost over. I'm just numb over this. I don't think I'll fully miss these women til I'm gone, look back, and say "oh no, it's over!" Not that any of them are dying, but Britney's getting married and almost everyone is moving elsewhere. Oh, life. We can never stay in one place for long. We'll be getting ten freshmen next year. That's ten out of sixteen girls. I've decided that I'm writing them a violent list of rules for abiding on the hall. I'll post this list when I come up with it.

Cleaning day was one of the most fantastic days of the week. Lisa and I woke up at 8:30 to go to Krispy Kreme and pick up donuts and coffee for the hall. We danced all the way down and back. Then we spent hours and hours listening to hip hop (well, I kind of forced her to listen to it) and dance/cleaning. This is my version of mopping the floor: spread the soapy stuff around on the floor, slap two wet rags on it, and skate around on the wet rags to the beat of music. It's very effective and you don't get a sore back. That, and you feel a lot sexier doing it. Now the room is all rearranged and it feels weird. Lisa and I have super high beds next to each other and we kind of feel like gurus on a giant Himalayan mountain. When I go to sleep, I feel like the Princess and the Pea. It's high. I don't like it. The walls are bare, too and there is so much dancing room on the floor.

We celebrated the end of cleaning day with some Moe's. Yes, we danced all the way down there too. I pretty much danced the whole day. And, thanks to the video "Peter at the Park", we're all going around saying, "These crusty-crust lips I gawt!" with several variations, like "These kristy kreme donuts I gawt."

Yesterday, I covered myself in Lisa's sparkly temporary tatoos.

The other night, Joel left a cart on our hall. Needless to say, we have a good time on anything that has wheels. Then Laura Main made two hopscotches on the floor with masking tape. We've been getting a lot of exercise lately.

On Sunday night, we played volleyball--on the hall.

I'm obsessed with Chacos.

I get annoyed when girls who don't live here cover our veranda with their barely-clothed bodies. 

My relationship with God has been really great lately. I'm learning a lot about dependency in prayer.

My Ukrainian friend Yana got a facebook today, and we had the most wonderful awkward chat this afternoon.We've been e-mailing over the last couple years and, because we have to send them through computer translators, we have a hard time understanding half of what the other one says.

I have a sticker book with my name on it. Thank you, mom.

I printed out the story today. It is done. 168 pages, dude.

Mr roommate is epic.

Now we are all on the veranda watching Molly paint. And listening to Demetri Martin.

Today is Star Wars day. May the Fourth be with you. It is also my last full day of sophomore year, and my last full day with this hall.

Boo.

Song of the day: Space Cowboy by 'N Sync